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I hung out with my ex, john, last night.. we dated for about a year and broke up 3 days after I moved back to Ithaca, mainly for him. We've been hanging out.. just doing dinner and playing rock band.. but it hasn't been easy. I've finally managed to not miss him as much in the BF way.. but after last night.. we are back in a mess with our 'relationship'.
We had dinner and then came back to his place to play rock band.. a few bottles of wine later.. and we were kissing.... and while I initiated the kiss... before we even started drinking... he was flirting with me... and kept doing so all night. I asked him what this was... and he just said 'were drunk and kissing... and I dont want anything again.."... as in relationship..
He drove me home soon after..
Now I am confused again.. I still have very strong feelings for him.. but he broke it up.. said he didnt love me.. so we decided to try being friends.. and it was getting ok until last night..
he left for FL for a 2 1/2 week break... I sent him an email.. we both have some thinking to do... I don't expect him to all of a sudden realize that he loves me and wants to get back together...but I also wonder if we can actually be 'just friends'..
anyways.. so that's my drama.. i've fought off emotional eating today at least.. staying on plan becuase really.. food will not fix this.. and I know that...