I had a great massage today.. in prep for a great 2009. I've been thinking about the ex all weekend and know in my heart that if we can't draw a big line and not cross it.. then there is just no way we can be 'just friends'. I really want to move FORWARD.. I don't want to be stuck thinking about the past.
This is my year.. I will get healthy for me and no one else.. I will do whatever I need to do to be happy.. I will lose this protective layer of fat and not be afraid to be who I am. I think what a lot of overweight people get stuck on is just that.. this fat is a protective layer..and it's safe (and easy) to just stay fat... we can try all we want to lose weight, but it's not going to happen until you just give in and let go... everything else will fall into place.
I'm not giving myself a time frame.. I will just take every day one day at a time.. focus on making good, healthy food choices...taking time to help my body get healthy by working out...and take time for my mental health.. wether its writting here or doing some yoga. I don't want to fall back or stay stagnant in this life (and body).. I want to move forward.
I'm really looking forward to this year... My lease ends at the end of may.. I will put all my stuff in storage (after a good purge of things I don't use/need... lighten the life load!).. I'll teach at camp again this summer..and apply for teaching jobs.. pretty much anywhere... I will find a job that I really love and will also be in a city that has many singing opportunitys. I will do things for me.. I will not actively search for a guy to be with or buy things that I think will make me happy... I will focus on me and making my life as full as can be.
What are your thoughts for the new year and how will you achieve them?