Friday, January 9, 2009

workout dissapointment.. (already?!)

I always do this. I get all gung-ho about something (this time working out) and when i fail to accomplish it 100% I get bummed.

I HAVE NO REASON TO BE UPSET AT HOW I WORKED OUT TODAY!!!

But I was.. I left the gym dissapointed and defeated and came home... and thought I looked myself in the mirror and told myself to snap out of it.. tears of frustration started to form.

I walked at 3mph for 40 minutes... then got bored and my shins started to hurt so I stopped/gave-up.

I got on the elliptical for a whopping 5 minutes and then the front of my thighs were killing.. so I stopped... (i have issues with the Elliptical!)

I got on the recumbant bike.. 1 minute later..got off after seeing it would take an hour to burn 40 calories at the rate I was going.

I think I'm mentally getting ahead of myself. I want to be able to burn an extra 500cals a day and eat 500 less cals a day.. but maybe that's not really do-able. I've put my info into a handful of BMR calculators and each one give me a different number. I just want to figure out how many calories it takes for me to maintain so I can figure out how to LOSE from there!!

I don't know why I'm going nuts about making sure I'm burning enough calories.. It's not like I'm at a plateau.. I mean.. CRIPES! I'm only on my second week of eating clean and I LOST 2lbs last week.

I really think I'm mental! haha

Anyways.. I will take some time tonight to reflect on my crazyness and breathe a little.

Everything I'm doing.. no matter how little it seems to me... I am still doing myself and my body a favor. I must not forget this. Every step I take.. Every bite I make ("I'll be watching youuuu!"..ha)... all these moves are bringing me one step closer to goal. I need not be so hard on myself.

3 comments:

Tamzin said...

baby steps baby steps!

I have to keep telling myself the same things and I sometimes have to remind myself that it took me a long time to get this out of shape and I can't change everything overnight. But you can keep moving in the right direction.

:D

Sharon said...

Hang in there, I think overall, you're doing a great job. Just take things one step at a time! Good luck!

Katschi (Karen) said...

I love what you highlighted in red!
Exactly THAT!
You KNOW in your heart what's right for you. Don't doubt yourself. You're doing very well.