it's a new day

Had a little bump in the road yesterday and life sure is throwing a lot challenges my way this week.. BUT.. after giving myself last night to mope and be sad about it all.. I am now ready to get back up and fight.

I will be making a list of reason why I am working on myself.. a list of all the positive things going my way... and while I acknowledge that I have challenges to deal with (don't we all).. I will not let those 'challenges' bring me down.

Yesterday's post(s) reminded me of my old self.. the girl who would give up and give in to things/people that were not good for her. I am not that person anymore and will not let all this good that I've accomplished just disappear becuase 'it's too hard'

I fell off the wagon...

I've been really struggling with eating right the past week.. I had a wedding to go to Saturday and it was buffett.. I got a huge plate of food.. ugh.. AND there was a candy bar.. which I ate all my candy today to "get it out of the house"... I had chinese tonight..and about 6 shortbread cookies

I just have no control right now.. I keep waiting for that gym membership thinking it will change everything.. and It will.. I will definently watch what I eat even more.. but I can't wait for that.. because who knows if ill be getting into a gym any time soon.

Anyways.. Tomorrow is a new day.. and I will continue to count my 30 points a day.. and since Saturday is my restart.. I have definently used my 35 weekly points. I have cleaned my room and have space to work out and have no reason not to. My goal is to do some form of movement at least 2 times this week. I have a pilates ball that I can also attach bands too... I have taebo on dvd... I should be able to take 20 - 30 minutes after work to workout instead of sit on my ass for 4 hours after work.

I'm going to lose this weight.. even if it means 1 lb a week or less... I'm not living my life. I cancled a date because I feel so fat and just don't feel like meeting people. That's not good! SO.. I need to lose weight to make myself feel better about myself.. and to actually live my life.. because right now I'm just wasting it. I've let my weight really hold me back recently. I need to seriously focus on me.. and take losing weight seriously. I need to be focused and determined 100%.. stay within points and get some kind of exercise in. I have to do this.. I'm not healthy and I'm definently not happy.. this changes NOW.