yesterday and today!

Friday was an ok day.. I doubled up on food at lunch again.. but I didn't do doubles at breakfast. I had a headache, so i didnt walk after work. I found out that I'm only making $10/hr at this day care job.. when I thought I was going to be making $12..so now I am looking for a better paying job.. if that's even possible. I've also emailed my boss about this situation hoping that she will give me a raise.

Anyways.. the food list for Friday..

800

oatmeal, banana (4)

1130

2c pasta (8)

mixed veggies

garlic cheese bread (8)

600

pasta w/veg sauce (4)

800pm

sweet potato

brocolli

cheese

butter

(7)

Total points 32... only used 1 weekly point... and am now down to 16 WP left

Today is a better day..

I woke up around 930, read for awhile, then got dressed to go take a walk.. had a pear.. then drove up to school to try to practice. My throat is weird again.. like there is a lump in it.. It wasnt easy to vocalize in my upper range. I played through all my music for the Messiah.. tried to sing my solo.. but my voice wasnt having it. I will try again tomorrow afternoon.

After that I went to the trail and walked for 40 minutes. It was so beautiful outside.. the way the sun came through the trees onto the trail. I saw a ton of chipmunks.. blue jays.. and even a deer just standing in my path. It reminded me how good life really is even if i'm in a financial mess. 

I came home and made 2 small breakfast burritos.. just eggs, some cheese and 2 whole wheat wraps. I also weighed myself (before my walk) and am at 230. It's my TOM though.. and even though it hasn't started yet.. I wonder how I will affect my weigh-in on Tuesday. I also wonder when It's going to come.. I'm on the NuvaRing.. and it goes back in on Tuesday morning. I'll probably get it today.. yay for short periods.

Todays Food List

10am

pear (1)

1200

2 ww burritos (4)

2 eggs (4)

cheese (2)

total - 10

4oo

banana (1)

615

roasted veggies over Rice (5)

1 ww wrap w/ cheese (4)

glass of red wine (2)

Used - 23 points of 31 ... 8 points remain for the day, plus  12 WP

I had a late start.. Im sure Ill be hungry around 9 or 10

wasnt really impressed with my veggies.. too much garlic I think (is that even possible?!)

I liked the winter squash? (orange color) and onions.. but my carrots didnt get very tender.. I'll probably just toss it in some spaghetti sauce to use over pasta

edit 1025pm

add 4 graham crackers w/ pb (8)

double gin and tonic (4)

Kind of had a melt down while watching 'Wall-e'. My ex and I had seen that movie 3 times this summer and have lots of good memories around it.. I haven't thought of him in a few weeks.. but I totally broke down about him tonight.. plus about my job and $

one walk -- 2 more to go by next Tuesday

OK.. So today was my short day.. out of work at 1 so I drove right to the end of the south hill rec trail and walked for 40 minutes.. burned 315 calories.. 3 activity points.

Food, however, got me in the butt...

I still can't stop at one serving at lunch.. plus today i had another breakfast when I got in to work!! I know my period is due soon.. but that shouldn't be an excuse to go nuts and eat whatever I want!

anyways.. Im very proud I got a walk in today. I left my shoes in the car in hopes that if it's nice when I leave work.. then I will go walk.

Todays Food

8am
bagel/lite cream cheese/ banana (9)

845 (at work)
mini bagel, PB (7)

Lunch 1130
2 tuna sandwiches (10)
applesauce (1)

Snack 300
pear (1)
graham crackers (2)
pb (2)
nuts (4)

dinner 700
pasta 1 1/2 cups (6)
veggies w/sauce (2)

snack - no reason - wasnt hungry
bagel w pb (7)

TOTAL - 51 FUCKING POINTS?!!!

Now.. I gained 3 APs
But USED freakin' 18 weekly points in one day

I know it's emotional eating.. I know it. Im bored and lonely.. If I had $ I would join a gym and spend my nights there.. instead of sitting on my bed.. watching tv or computer.

I'm frustrated with myself.. But I know that its going to be ok.. those weekly points are there to be used.. I just need to really stick to one serving a meal.. drinking my water.. walking. I know WW works.. I'm just really emotional

Fake Chicken Strips... not so much...

Well.. I needed to use the broccolli up, so I made stir fry. I also had some fake chicken strips. I made my favorite jasmine rice (sticky rice).. broc and carrots, and chicken. It was a HUGE portion.. probably 2 cups of veg, 1 1/2 C rice and 3oz chicken. I really didnt like the chicken strips tho.. and will not buy them again.. Ill just use beans next time. I also am really full after this mean.. I guess veggies really do fill you up.

Todays food...

8am

1 c shredded wheat, 1 c soy milk, 1 banana (5)

1130

2 grilled cheese (10)

veggies 

1 Tbsp PB (2)

600

1 1/2 c rice (6) (only needed 1 cup probably)

veggie mix

fake chicken strips (3)

oil (2)

total dinner (11)

Grand Total so far --- 28

3 points left as of 635pm.. and ALL my weekly points

My goals are still..

1. drink 2 large glasses of water

2. MOVE (this is tough....)

3. take only ONE helping at Lunch --- totally didnt need that second grilled cheese

damn tortilla chips

The multi grain tostitos come in a much smaller bag and I have managed to eat pretty much the whole bag... gross..

part of me just wants to finish the stupid bag off and get over it.. the other part of me wants to just throw it away and get over it..

i knew i shouldn't have bought them tonight... but me in my .. 'i did ok at weigh-in today.. i can splurge'.. attitude.. went and bought them.. .c'est la vie

Weigh-in was suprising.. while I only went down .4, I still managed to actually go DOWN after a weekend of eating off plan and drinking way too much.

I really need to get back into a workout schedule.. today is my short day at work.. done at 1.. and i came home and took a nap.. it was a GORGEOUS day today.. and i took a nap

I need to get out of this funk I'm in.. and get into a schedule that includes exercise and practicing singing.. its way too tempting for me to come home.. get in bed.. and read or catch up on tv

Here's a look at today's food.. I know i went over (thanks tostitos)

b - oatmeal, ww eng muffin w/rf pb PLUS a mini bagel at work... really!?
L - about 2 cups of rice with beans and corn
D - 3 tacos with soy crumbles, cheese, sour cream
then like a whole bage of multi-grain chips and salsa

tomorrow is a start to a new week.. I bought groceries.. lots of fresh produce.. spaghetti squash (since we talked about it for like 10 minutes at tonights meeting)

Here are this weeks dinner ideas

The old stand by --- squash,carrots and onion sauted over rice
might put together a lasagna with soy crumbles
roasted fall veggies (onion,carrot,potato,squash)
And i need to do something with the broccolli I bought a week ago...


the good thing about having lunch at work is I don't need to buy as much food.. but its also not always healthy.. especially when I have more than one helping..

monday monday

Ok.. well.. it was an ok day. I went away this weekend to see a friend out in Cleveland.. and it was tough to eat well and I definently drank more than I should've. I tried really hard today to eat ok.. but I had seconds at school. I think I feel like I need to finish what the kids don't so as not to waste food.. but.. HELLO!? I don't buy the food.. so It's not my waste to deal with. My goal this week is to not take seconds at lunch. 

that said.. weigh in is tomorrow.. Im pullin for either a loss or no gain/loss... but am prepared for a gain.. I know it was a rough weekend and I let it be that way. 

todays food

8am

1 packet oatmeal (2)

1130

1 1/2 - 2 cups pasta (6-8)

1/2 c peas (1)

mini chicken poppers/nuggets (8?) 

(YES>> chicken. ... WTF.. I go no meat and then I get to school.

I think I was like.. 'damn.. i am not going to be full on pasta and peas... tomorrow is another day..)

1/2 c apple juice (1)

3 slices WW bread w/butter (6)

dinner 6:30

2 slices Nirchies square pizza (1 plain, 1 mushroom) (10)

diet pepsi

I have no weekly left.. obviously.. thanks weekend.

Total used..  36 +/-

My GOALS this week.. 

1. Exercise!!!! t/th and sat/sun .. either walks or Taebo.. something to get me moving

2. drink 2 large water bottles/day

3. NO MEAT.. c'mon.. seriously

4. Only take one helping of lunch at work

peanut butter.. you are the devil

I said I wouldn't keep it in the house.. but wouldn't you know.. I ended up buying some.

I wouldve had a perfectly in points day had it not been for the graham cracker and peanut butter binge I had not 5 minutes after I finished dinner.

I wasn't thinking 

anyways.. -18 weekly points (not just from today!) Need to be careful this weekend though It may be tough as I'm going out of town, and will be drinking.. I would hate to see a GAIN my first week of WW.. must drink LOTS of water

todays food log...

8am

1 pckt low sugar oatmeal (2)

ww english muffin (1)

butter (1)

total (4)

Lunch

1130

2 ww wraps with ff refried beans and cheese (14)

raisins (2)

corn (2)

total = 18 (WAY TOO MUCH FOR LUNCH)

dinner

630

2C rice (8)

mixed Veggies (0)

total = 8

snack

4 sheets rf graham cracker (4)

3 Tbsp rf PB (6)

total = 10

Ate all my points for the day and used 10 weekly points

Don't be angry.. at least you can admit your mistakes and know that that PB and crackers crap didnt taste good anyways.. and 1 cracker wouldve done

live and learn!

so I'm a vegitarian who eats fish.. fine

I've been playing around with eating vegetarian for almost 2 months now. I havent touched red meat, or chicken for that matter.. in over a month. At the school I work at, we have to eat what the kids eat ( they are 2-4 year olds and want what we eat..so) Today was hamburger day.. gross.. so I had tuna instead.. its either that or have PB and Jelly sandwiches when they have a meat lunch. I counter-acted it with a big bowl of fresh veggies and some sticky (jasmine) rice.. yum.

Today wasn't bad food-wise. I did start snacking after dinner for no reason.. but am sticking to my 'no-food-after-9pm' rule.. so I'm done. I bought the jello rice pudding cups because i LOVE rice pudding , and they were only 70 cal (2 points) each.. but.. the pudding is too 'eggy'.. i'll finish them.. but I wont buy again. 

here's todays food intake. I def. didn't need 2 sandwiches, or the fries... I have to work harder at taking one portion at school, and stick to it.

8am

shredded wheat/soy milk/banana (6)

1130

tuna sandwich - 6

tuna sandwich w/cheese - 8

fries 4

pear 1

total - 19 !

630

rice - 4

veggies - 0

830

graham crackers and rf pb -5

rice pudding - 2

fiber one bar (6pm) 2

total - 9

used  all 31 daily points +  7 weekly points

I need to be careful with my weekly points as I'm going out of town this weekend...