turning things around

Alright... the last time I posted it was April....

It's now almost December and I'm getting sick of gaining weight and feeling so blah

I've stopped -
1. drinking all my water
2. exercising
3. caring about what i eat
4. avoiding fast food/take-out

That has lead me to weigh in at 270

I never EVER though I would be that heavy...

Sooooo....

it's time to go back to what works...

Being ACCOUNTABLE....
TRACKING food and water
EXERCISING
Keeping a JOURNAL of food/activities/emotions

I've lost weight before.. I know what works

Going to check out Golds Gym this week.... and get back to Weight Watchers

It's time to actually care about myself... I definitely haven't been doing that for the past 8 months...

If I keep on the current path I am on.. I WILL DIE. My BMI is 48... I weigh 270lbs and I'm only 5'3 ... I havent exercised in MONTHS... I get out of breath doing the easiest things... TIME TO CHANGE!

What is wrong with me?!

What happened to the girl who actually *cared* about what she ate and how much she moved.

I'm at an all-time high of 260.

I just kind of gave up.... I've been eating crap and have had no second thoughts about it.

I know that if I keep it up I will be at 300 soon.

Looking back at my stats when I actually cared... last weigh in was 4/20 and I was 222.

Almost a year later... and 38lbs later... and I'm so miserable.

I know how to eat right... I know that working out is important.

I just can't get my mind wrapped around it all again. All I think is that 'what's the point.. I'm just going to gain it all back again'... it's this endless cycle and I don't know how to break it.

I got suckered into a fad diet... suddenly slim... it's pills and shakes and no carbs. That lasted a day and a half. I don't know why I even bothered. I know deep down that there is no quick/easy fix. Losing weight is hard and it takes consistent effort.

I know there are people out there that have gone through phases like this... and also people that are successful in what they do to lose weight.

What I need right now is inspiration.... so tell me.... how are you doing this 'healthy life' thing and what do you do to bounce back?!

I'm going to go read through my old posts and see if that helps.

yikes!

and this is why it's good to track your food!!

after inputting all of it.. (plus the ice cream binge i just had)

almost 3000 calories!!! WHAAT!

right... so...re-thinking meal plans now.... holy crap

didn't get all my water in... but i did get a 30 min. walk in... better than nothing.

aye aye aye!! tracking food is always a good way to snap you out of weight gain avoidance syndrome... seriously!

back that carrot truck up...

yeah.. so much for thinking I was going in the right direction....

back to 253.6

Now... I only have myself to blame...

I did not care at all about what I ate and only got in a few walks.

I know I can do better.

I tracked my food tonight ... even the reeses pb cups (all 4)... and was shocked back into remembering why it's so important to track your food.

So.. Goals for the week!

1. Log your food every day no matter what.

2. Drink your water... no less than 6 cups...

3. get to the gym at least 3 times.

4. be more aware of portion sizes

I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK!

little by little..

One step at a time, right?

Have made it to the gym 2 days in a row!! Did 30 minutes on Monday and then 45 today. Going to do another 45 tomorrow and then 60 on Th/Fri and then hopefully I will be able to keep up with the hour walk like I used to do. My body isn't moving fast yet. 2.8mph feels really fast (thanks short legs!)

I'm doing ok with eating... I could do better with my post gym snack. I stick with the same foods for breakfast and lunch.. so that's easy.

Weigh in on monday was down to 249... OUT OF THE 250's!!!!!!!! and -3lbs.

Just gonna keep on keepin' on!

need to laugh?

things I did right today...

Ignoring all desires to wallow in my current state of being....

Things I did GOOD today:

1. Ate a healthy breakfast and lunch and had 2 healthy snacks. I love clementine oranges!

2. Drank one whole nalgene bottle (32oz)

3. got some laughs in while watching Ellen. Richard Simmons was on and he is one crazy dude!

Tomorrow I have plans to go check out Gold's Gym (although I hear its mad expensive) and their 12 week challenge. I will work on getting 2 whole bottle of water in and eating well breakfast, lunch, snack, AND DINNER!